Well, my husband actually got called to work for 6 hrs today, and has a final shift 28 hrs, before total lay off. Well... It's better than nothing and will prevent disconnects for a bit longer. Thank God. I dropped him off and spent day with my sister, it helped a lot, but doesn't change the pain. I just keep praying help will find a way, a door, a job, direction. And keep fighting the good fight at times. It's not easy always being the strong one, for my family, like I'm supposed to endure this with no feelings and just keep plugging. I actually enjoyed and laughed for first time in few weeks since the last time infection set in my jaw, down my chest, neck, headaches. It's interesting how people expect you to work miracles and be something your not to survive. I'd give anything (almost) to just have a chance at dentures so I could work.. Like a catch 22.. I watch my husband fill out apps, send resumes, even walk in snow storms to show he's dependable. Not many ppl would even try that, not in today's society of comforts. But, because the so called economy, his age, living in a collage town, etc.. He finds himself fighting his own good fight to just feel like he's doing his part. Which he is.. I'm proud he really gets out and tries. If he got paid for all his searching, all the times applied, we'd be stable. So I try to understand his position, and I'm not going to judge him because he's not working much, he can't help that. He is doing what it takes, and we can just hope, pray doors open. I try to get out of myself, the pain, to consider, help others as I can.. But when were struggling so much we can't reach out like we'd like. We have to help ourselves before we can help others. I just wish the walls were not stacked against us and we could work and pay our own way like we have for so many years. Prices are so much higher. Go to store ppl many are rude, not enough employees working. Prices higher for lesser amounts.. so many changes, and my teeth, gums are so bad a clinic nurse was so concerned. I don't know I just feel so stuck right now.. Made it through today, and even laughed.. Day at a Time..
